Awwww HELL-o (aka my last few weeks)

ab·sen·tee·ism

noun \ˌab-sən-ˈtē-ˌi-zəm\

a tendency to be away from work or school without a good reason

a·void·ance

noun \uh-void-ns\

the act of avoiding or keeping away from

Either way you look at it - I’ve been absent and I’ve been avoiding posting…but here we are.

Let me break it down for you.

My AI Project:

Week 1

"Oh good. Here we go. This is going to be tough but SOOOOO worth it."

Week 2

"This fucking blows. I want my coffee. Give. Me. My. Coffee. Also - how the fuck did I lose 11lbs in a week?!?"

Week 3

"I don’t miss the sugar much…just the habit of the sugar…and I hate everything and everyone - all the time. Leave me alone."

Week 4

"I still feel like shit. What the hell is wrong with me? Oh! What’s that doc? C Diff? Again? Great! No wonder I can’t make it down the street without an urgency issue (read as: squeezing my butt so hard I could make a diamond out of a piece of charcoal) and try hard not to crap myself…which sometimes works but mostly doesn’t. Man I feel so sexy. Maybe I’ll get a dog. I’m getting a dog."

Week 5

"Fuck this noise. I’m going to see Godzilla. And having Sour Patch Kids. And Junior Mints. I feel like crap anyway - I might as well eat some crap."

Week 6

"So here we are. Back on the diet. Done with the Flagyl antibiotic which probably killed every living thing (good and bad) in my digestive system. Back to zero. Woot! Womp womp."

That’s my month in review. Ulcerative colitis is the worst hell that I would wish on no one. The shit (literally) that I deal with every single day astounds me.

But I keep my head up.

I keep trucking along.

Why?

Because I have to. Because I know nothing else. Because I will let nothing defeat me. No matter what.

I love my life.

On June 3, I’m going to see a new doctor. A great doctor by all accounts. She’s the bee’s knees according to the interwebs. Has been in the field for 40+ years. 

My appointment is an hour long. She’s going to analyze all of my data. Which I printed out. And is over 150 pages. You weren’t going to visit the rainforest anyway.

Now - my apologies for not posting more frequently over the last couple of weeks. I won’t let it ride that long again. I just let it all get the best of me. I have realized that in order for me to be successful - I have to keep this up. I have to share my story and I need the support of my family and friends (that’s you).

Onwards and upwards, y’all!